X is for XavierDefinitions from Dictionary.com
1. Saint Francis ( Francisco Javier; “the Apostle of the Indies” ), 1506–52, Spanish Jesuit missionary, esp. in India and Japan.
2. a male given name: from an Arabic word meaning. So that is what Xavier means
Today I received communion invitations from my girlfriend. It seems that she has decided to take her children through the Catholicism process. I am happy for her. It showed how she is much more stable, and much stronger in faith than I. It comes so easy for her, while it feels burdensome for me.
I can not figure out why I am so afraid to take on this responsibility. Is it because the responsibilities I have did not derived from my own choices, which made me more anxious to get rid off, or is it because of my own weakness. Perhaps I am in need of psychologist evaluation and am disillusioned of my role in life.
I recalled when I was faced with the decision, to bring the boys to the other side or not. I couldn't make a go of it. I fear I couldn't live up to the expectations and the responsibilities of motivating my children. So I ran away. I made sure that there isn't anymore communications with the church, and I made sure that I don't welcome anymore responsibilities. I believe being a good Christian or Catholicism or any religion there might be, you need to be stable, to accept god, to accept responsibilities and such expectations of being a parishioner. I didn't have that consistency, and now, I am waiting for the day when I can handle it all, and that I would be open to the path that is already chosen for me. Whether to accept or to find out if this is the religion of my choice, there should be a time when I will see it much clearer.
I would love for you all to join Thursday Two Questions:
My Thursday Two Questions:
1) Did you chose your own religion now (if you have one), or has it been in the family?
2) Have you ever been forced into a situation where if given the choice, you would not have chosen it?
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Amanda, there has never been a time that I regretted my commitment to God. As a child in second grade my teacher invited my sister and I to church with her. Persistently I pleaded with our parents until they also went. Soon the family were members of a Quaker Friends church. When I left the military in NY, I could find no Quaker church but found a suitable church and took my children. My husband seldom went, or came home so it was left up to me. I found my strength in God. He is my constant.
ReplyDeleteI have regretted my choice in men, but never my choice in following God. Man will disappoint and hurt you. God never forsakes.
1. i grew up as a methodist, fell away from it for a time, experimenting with other things, came back to it, then switched to presbyterian.
ReplyDelete2. sure, a number of times when i was younger especially. but it can happen in marriage, at work. i think it's typical. we don't all get to do it our way - life isn't burger king.
ROG, ABC Wednesday team
My family were always Church of England and I followed yet I came to know God through the Salvation Army. I made my promise to him at the age of 10 and it never changed.
ReplyDeleteNo regrets - still the smae.
Provocative post. Happy New Year!
ReplyDeleteExcellent questions! I was raised the religion I am now (LDS), but I made a conscience choice to be a part of it when I was in my 20's.
ReplyDeleteHAPPy NEW YEAR, may it be full of peace and joy!
Throughout the years, different family members had several different faiths. I never picked any they shared. I was of age when I made my on decision. I am not perfect and none of us ever will be. You just have to try and live the best you can each day that is pleasing to HIM.
ReplyDelete1) I grew up with my religion, and I am fine with it, but I have questions about the entire ideal of this system, or maybe I am starting to see things differently now, and just want to argue with people who would listen, not with those one-way minded..
ReplyDelete2) I haven't face that situation yet! I can't say that I know of any other religion that I would like to chose.
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
1. My religion has been in the family as far as I can remember, but the tradition is fading fast with this new generation.
ReplyDelete2. Not really. I'm lucky. I've chosen most of my paths in life--right or wrong. Guess that means I have no one to blame for my failures but myself. Though my successes, I attribute to parents and family who set such a good example.
@Judy Sheldon-WalkerMy family is very religious. I have to say that it is a calling and a blessing. Not everyone has the same ambition in church as you, that said, I would love to have one tenth.
ReplyDelete@Roger Owen Green1) wonderful that you were able to try other religions! My head would be off if I did.
ReplyDelete2) Haha, "have it your way" at Burger King. Too bad, I was hoping for a perfect life one of these days...haha
@mrsnesbittWonderful, there sounds like a great story at the salvation army!
ReplyDelete@Tumblewords:Yes, I don't want to scare away anyone, but once in a while I wanted to know that my readers are awake. Smiles.
ReplyDelete@angieLife is full of choices, and choices are made by head strong and confidence personalities, congrats.
ReplyDelete@LVYes, that is my goal, live the way I know it is best at the time. It is a road of learning.
ReplyDelete@♥-Icy BC-♥I think you mean you would like to converse in an intelligent way. With people who agree to disagree. I think that is very healthy and I would love to have the same conversation.
ReplyDelete@Margaret DuarteIt seemed that way. Today, it is so much about change, and so much about living life the way you believe. I know about this, as I have a teenager.
ReplyDeleteFantastic, I love that you are able to make your choices in life. You had a good up bringing and a great family.
I definitely understand how you feel and I hope whenever you do make the choice on a faith, it will be what you desire.
ReplyDeleteI am Christian and I feelt that there are other things I should be doing, but if I feel burdened by any religion, I will shut down, so I pray and allow God to grow me during my selfishness.
I ran away from this Christian thing for a long time because since I was a child it was being shoved down my throat and I did NOT like that at all. In a sense it was chosen for me and I resented it. I resented it for a long time until I could make my own choice about it. Then it was ok for me to choose.
2. I think I have. Just trying to remember a standing one is making my mind watery.
I was raised Catholic and then was away from the Church for many years. When I found my way back, I felt my life was complete; an empty place had been filled. There is nothing that brings strength, peace, and stability like being grounded in Faith and worship. I don't regret my time away because it makes my Faith all the more meaningful to me now.
ReplyDeleteHolding you to our Blessed Mother's heart,
Annie
1) i studied the bible from grade school to high school. my father's family are Jehovah's Witnesses, my mother's side of the family are Catholics. in college and in my 20's, i explored other faiths. i guess i got the encouragement from my father. he used to tell me, "religion cannot save a person". in my 30's, i made a decision not to belong to any religion.
ReplyDelete2) when i was young, i did things out of duty and resented it. then i realized i have a choice. i have chosen my own path, if i succeed or fail, i have no one to blame but myself.:p
I grew up with one religion but I have been exposed to quite a few different ones by choice. Let's just say that I have come a long way in my beliefs from where I began.
ReplyDeleteThis is such a complicated thing...I think He does it all for a reason:)
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